My Heart A Flame

Lord Savior Abba Papa Daddy Redeemer Refiner Lover of my soul Thank you Thank you again and again with out ceasing I say thank you as I fall on my face and reel from your grace your love and your healing touch Your touch melts me it burns me it settles me it sets me free free to soar You tenderly gently unfold me inside out layers of pain lies and wounds unwrapping and untangling folds and knots seperating lies from truth Deeper and Deeper we go as overtime you've been refining me so sweetly so gently tenderly lovingly freeing me healing me My spirit rejoices at every touch every OUCH that slips across my soul the sting is deep but sweet as life and strength in truth it brings Searing pain that burns away away it goes the chaff and the dross underneath what remains jewels and gems precious and sweet formed from you in me for you at your feet I sit at your feet I rejoice laying before you my jewels and gems given me by you Oh how I LOVE YOU Oh how Glorious are you!

In a Blink of an eye

My boys are turning into young men on their way to adulthood.......

I have really been mourning how quickly the years pass and I know they will just keep flying by and I want to cherish each precious day with them. Time is fleeting and we can never go back or get back what we have lost or missed, but we can be aware in the moment of now, taking in each treasured moment shared. When they are little demanding all of your attention it seems like it will go on forever but before you know it you will be looking back at the years passed surprised how short of time "forever" ended up being. Instead of wanting it to hurry up you will be wishing you could be there again, rocking them to sleep, kissing their boo boos and reading their favorite stories to them before bed. When you were everything and mommy could always make it better.

It is an amazing gift to be a mother, so wrap your arms around your children and breath in the sweetness of your little baby, the dustiness of your little toddler covered in the film formed from his daily explorations. Your grade schooler seeking out his place in his world away from you. That stinken tween who is sure he knows more than you. Your hairy teenager that is on the threshold of becoming an adult. Hug them every day and tell them how much you love them and what a gift they are in your life.

We never know what's to come tomorrow; we may only have today and the memories of yesterday. Let your heart swell with your love for them and spill all over them….no matter how much they protest, they still need to know you love them and how valuable they are to you

Old and Angry but I gotta say I still like it. :o)

Raining Reigning

Time~

time ever flowing
always pouring
like drenching rain.

Falling and stumbling atop
against crashing day to day.
Never lulling in all its pulling
out of controling- can't keep up
with its endless droning.

I scream out

Wait

stop

Please slow down.

I can't keep up.

My grip is slipping
my hands are raw
ever grasping.

My heart is pounding my mind is
whirling. There is no ceasing its
all consuming.

Where am I? Can you see me?

Help me please I think I'm falling
hurry please, my strength is seeping.
Will you catch me? Or watch me fall,
do you see me? Can you hear me as
I'm screaming?

Your eyes rest on me

but
look
right
through me.

Behind your gaze is emptiness.

I think you too are lost,
left, already fallen,
only here by the air you breath.

I breath.
created 12/14/02 by D.M

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You are an amazing and beautiful daughter of the King Most High, always remember that, and always believe that, because it is the truth. It is the very core of truth. He loves you and pursues you; He has gifts and blessings for you that nothing else can compare to. I pray that you take that truth and plant it deep in your heart. Guard it and cherish it, cling to it in those moments when no one else sees that and when it feels like it’s the farthest thing from the truth remember, regardless of those moments it is still, the truth. The world will try to convince you that it has what you want, what you need. That is the great lie.


The world is whispering soft words of deceit to our young women, it says you are measured by your beauty and it is a kind of beauty that is of the world it eats away at you from the inside out, It tells women you are measured by your sex appeal, what you wear, how you look, talk and move. Being desirable. Desired by men and envied by women.


This causes dissension, and tears apart relationships. It creates brokenness and weakness but in contrast when we are vulnerable and we are open and honest with who we are and where we are, we invite a connection that is solid and secure. Then, we are able to experience a sacred refuge and be comforted in our unity and strengthened in the power that is created as we come together side by side and when we do that we are able to be Mighty warriors and conquers over all lies and snares set before us.


Remember, you are not alone, the struggles we experience are truly parallel in one form or another from one woman to another. We are all different and unique yet, we are all very much the same intrinsically in our inherent ness. We are powerful and beautiful we were designed to be a stunning reflection of our Fathers character. We were created to be loved and cherished just as our heart yearns for but we live amongst the ruins of brokenness, we are all broken in one form or another, our healing and our freedom is found only in the truth of our creator and His love for us.


He will peruse you and woo you, (just as He is doing now) keep your eyes and ears open to His ways, and watch as He reveals the mystery of His love for you personally.


You are worthy of such adoration because He says so. You are his priceless treasure. His love isn’t won by your merit, it is freely given because it is who He is and what He does, (nothing you do or don’t do can add to it or take away from it) so bask in it baby!


I encourage you to be purposeful in your journey of life… don’t let it blow you to and fro let God be your guiding force and look ahead to see where those big choices may take you. Examine the outcome and pray about it, then step out~ led by the light of your Father.


Yes, you will stumble and fall, sometimes you will get banged up and bruised up but don’t worry, He is always right there, ready to take your hand, whenever you are ready to give it to Him. Through those times you will grow and learn, savoring His love for you all the more because of it.



I can’t wait to see where you go and how you grow, as you take hold of your gifts and thrive in the midst of them. All the while blessing the Lord as you bless others and the cherry on top is the joy that will fill you up to overflowing as you live out your destiny.


One of my favorite quotes is, “Your life is an occasion Rise to it!”

I am proud of you and want you to know that I am cheering you on whether near or far. I am a fan of yours.

Simply Put

Encouraged

I have just Recently experienced a Deliverance from a bondage that had become a huge burden to me and my family.

My emotions were controlling me and it was not pretty. I was so sucked into believing that I wasn't strong enough to overcome myself and guess what, I wasn't but God my Father was and is... and I finally realized after all my prayers it was simply a matter of unbelief. I didn't believe that God would deliver me.

I was falling for the lies of the Enemy who desired to destroy me and I was letting him. But this past weekend I heard My Father in heaven speak so clearly to me. Calling me to just believe and receive His promise. He has promised me authority over my emotions and he has given me my land. My family, My faith, and My heritage in Him and upon understanding and accepting that I was filled with so much righteous anger and then I realized, its over I am not been opressed anymore. I am pushing the enemy back and I am not buying into his pathetic lies anymore and I realized how small he is and how big My God is and just how Awesome the Saving Grace of our Lord Jesus Christ is.

I was given this scripture about a week and a half ago and felt that I needed to come back to it later. Now I see why. It is absolutely perfect. It is speaking to me as if it were coming straight from the Fathers mouth right into my ear. Thank you Father God for your love and faithfulness may I bless you and honor you as I continue to seek you. All Glory be to You!

2 Peter 1
1Simon Peter, a servant and apostle of Jesus Christ, To those who through the righteousness of our God and Savior Jesus Christ have received a faith as precious as ours:
2Grace and peace be yours in abundance through the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord.
Making One's Calling and Election Sure 3His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. 4Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.
5For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; 6and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; 7and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love. 8For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.

So Insipired

~So Inspired~

What do you do when you are caught in the middle of Brokenness and Greatness?

Do you rise or do you fall? Do you scream from fear or anger? That is, if you can catch your breath at all....Or do you leap and dive, tuck and roll, spin and kick and then surrender it all?

When you have been fighting and running chasing after some dream or ideal~ but all you find is that you are right where you have always been; moving only in circles not gaining any ground. The dream you've been pursuing is still off in some distant, far and away, Peter Pan land....

I say stop, drop, and roll~ shake the dust off, get up and look up. Move your vision from where it has been to where it should be.


Get up, out of yourself. Then, stand up high on a mountain, or a cloud, or how bout Heavens gate. Then tell me sweet mother, sweet sister, sweet daughter, sweet precious woman what do you see?

Come, stand beside me Mighty Warrior. Daughter of the King most high. Take hold of your position in this place and time. For you have a purpose that has been calling to you from the beginning of eternity. Your heart knows it and your spirit confirms it, so dance and rejoice because your purpose is now, your strength is rising up-Oh daughters of Zion ARISE and prepare to Enlarge in the waiting.

Enlarge in your greatness. As an expectant mother eagerly awaits the arrival of the life she births forth, we now wait for new life and in the waiting we grow in Greatness, in righteousness, in an awareness of our power and ability to bring forth life and death. Yes, even by mere words we can strike down or we can build up. I want to build up, to edify, to exalt and Knight. And as we enlarge we will pour ourselves out-one into another ~sisters, daughters, mothers, and grandmothers.

The young and the old coming together, side by side enlarging to such awesome greatness, in a way we have never known before~ as His Bride.Honoring Our King, Our Lord, Our Redeemer.









This past weekend I was blessed to hear Lisa Bevere speak on the topic of Gods Daughters and It was so exciting and encouraging. Much of what I have written reflects what she said. It rang true in my heart and my spirit. I am so excited. I can’t wait to see what God is going to call us to on His behalf. May we be preparing our fields for the Harvest He wishes to sow.

Into Your Arms I Rest

Wandering down this path before me; I am distracted by all that surrounds me.

Sights, sounds, and smells that spill out of the scenery it dwells within.

I am taken aback, what beauty, what vastness there is. The sky belted by its beautiful horizon with the rising of mountains, trees and the glorious sun like a brilliant gem.

The cascading colors dripping across the plane. Sunrise, sunset, brilliant leaves dancing upon the earth’s sweet breath, being carried to and fro until it finally finds its end, gently coming to rest among the grass, the ground, the earth, full of life and death.

I am like a leaf- still clinging to its branch. The one that holds me, nourishes me and calls me out to be a part of something greater than myself. To serve a purpose, a part of a whole. I want to stand, to be still and to be led by the One who calls out to me, from deep to deep. My spirit listens, it hears, it yearns to rise up to the occasion that is, My Life.

Yet there is a storm raging against me determined to knock me from my home, to blow me away and take it all.

Then, there is me…who again and again gets in the way, talking over the still quiet voice that tirelessly speaks to me ~desiring to reveal His truth to me. Waiting ever so patiently as I ramble on and on about the when’s, how’s and whys.

“Be still”, I hear Him say. “My precious child, look to me. I will show you the way. I have called you and you are mine. I will fill your every need,

look to me.

I have pursued you from the moment you came to be. I love you and I know you like no other can. Let me calm your storm. Take my hand.

I want you just as you are, broken and frayed. Let me take that burden that weighs you down. Let loose your grasp, you’ve held so tight. Let your white knuckled fists unclench. I already bore the weight of it, all of it. It is mine. There is no need for you to keep it for yourself.

It separates you from me.

It gives the enemy access so easily.

A means to fill your heart with hurt.

He holds you down while whispering lies, lies he’s been telling you for so long.

To cause you to stumble and fall, to fill you with doubt that questions my truth. To fill you with shame and deter you from my love and my perfect will.

But you are mine and I love you deeply. I have plans to prosper you and build you up. Turn away from the deception that keeps you from me. Take the lies captive and be set free.

Free to run into my arms stretched wide, eager to embrace you and hold you tight".

Who Am I?

Bonhoeffer’s poem, Who Am I?, written in prison in June of 1944:
"Who Am I"

Am I then really that whichother men tell of?

Or am I only what I myselfknow of myself?
Restless and longing and sick,
like a bird in a cage,struggling for breath, as
though hands were compressing
my throat,

yearning for colours, for flowers,
for the voices of birds,thirsting
for words of kindness, for neighbourliness,
tossing in expectation of great
events,powerlessly trembling for friendsat
an infinite distance,weary and empty at praying,
at thinking, at making,faint, and ready to say
farewell to it all.Who am I? This or the other?
Am I one person today and tomorrow another?
Am I both at once?A hypocrite before others,and
before myself a contemptibly woebegone weakling?
Or is something within me stilllike a beaten army,
fleeing in disorder from victory already achieved?
Who am I? They mock me,these lonely questions of mine.
Whoever I am, Thou knowest, 0 God,I am Thine!
Dietrich Bonhoeffer
Tegel PrisonSummer 1944